School, waiting or me

I have to go back to Germany and finish my basic school education which will take two more years, so I’ll be almost old before I even go to college. The thought that I will have to go to school again in Germany is actually the main point why I really don’t want to go back (I don’t tell that my family, they still think I can’t wait to get back, I just didn’t want to hurt their feelings, if you can understand maybe).
Two more years just seems so endless long to me right now. I am a little spoiled since I just took more or less enjoyable and fun classes over here. But this will have an end pretty soon. I am actually really scared that I don’t make it. School in Germany is a lot harder and I just missed a school year, which means there is tons of make-up work waiting for me over the summer. And I will have to take classes I don’t like and I suck at again something like Chemistry.

It’s weird to think that I could just go to college here now, but in Germany I need two more years of “High School” if you want to call it that. I was even thinking about doing that but than the smarter half of my brain told me that it is just way too expensive here and I could get it for free if I wait a little more. And most things I could do here are not going to be recognized in Germany, which means I would have to stay in the US then. Not cool.

So I’ll go back to Germany and finish school. Period. End of the discussion. My dream kind of would be just going to France next year for a year to improve my French and get to know their culture a little better, but I thing that has to wait until college. And after France South America is waiting on my list J.